What would I be?

One night. 

I can’t sleep well.

I just kept on thinking “WHAT WOULD I BE YEARS FROM NOW?”

Thoughts keep running through my head. 

Whether I’ll lead my success to become a much more better marketer or maybe my career is on advertising. 

We’ll never know what my future will be.

After a year. 

I’ll be also wearing my graduation suit.

Receive my diploma. 

Hear my parents that they are so proud of me.

At last! Years of schooling. 

It’s time for me to be on the real world called “LIFE”.

This is what mostly of the parents are waiting for.

To post their daughters/sons diplomas on their living rooms.

Or when somebody will ask them. 

“How’s your son/daughter?”

Then, they’ll just answer it with a big smile on their faces.

“She/he has graduated college.”

But, now let me just congratulate those who graduated.

Especially to the seniors in my school.

Who taught us to be leaders on our own ways.

To live life. Accept challenges. 

And especially despite the trials we’ve encountered.

Learn to SMILE. 

Next year it would be our turn. 

CONGRATULATIONS BATCH 2011!! =)

-- Chapter 4

We just went to the mall. And looked for list of available movies.


I'd seen a poster and it entitled "500 days of summer".


"So what do you want to watch? he said.


"Hmm.. maybe we could watch 500 days of summer?" 


"A friend told me that it was a good movie. Alright, as you wish Madam!" He went to the ticket booth. Then I told him that I would get ourselves a pop corn and cans of coke.


Afterwards, we went inside. 


"Good thing the movie is isn't starting." I said. I gave him his pop corn and the can of coke.


"Thanks" he said with a smile.


The movie was about to start.
So both our attentions is on the movie.


The story goes like this.
The guy which is Tom Hansen reflects back on the just over one year that he knew the girl which Summer Finn. Despite being physically average in almost every respect, Summer had always attracted the attention of men, Tom included. For Tom, it was love at first sight when she walked into the greeting card company where he worked, she the new administrative assistant. Soon, Tom knew that Summer was the woman with whom he wanted to spend the rest of his life. Although Summer did not believe in relationships or boyfriends - in her assertion, real life will always ultimately get in the way - Tom and Summer became more than just friends. Through the trials and tribulations of Tom and Summer's so-called relationship. 


The movie maked me bitter. I hate the ending of the story.  


"That was not a good movie!" I shrugged.


After the movie we went to a Chinese restaurant.


"Summer is not a good influence to everyone!" It felt like the movie has a big impact to me.


"I guess she has a good reason. Like it would be better if she would just leave." he said.


"No she has no good reasons to leave. Maybe.." 


He laughed at me.


"Yes, Maybe.. Its better if we could take our orders now."


I just nodded.


"What if I'll tell you that the guy in the movie. We have in-common." 


"ahhh yes! I agree! Both of you are geeks!" 


He just stared at me. No reactions at all. I think I offended him.


"Oh, sorry.." I was looking down feeling ashamed on what I've said.


suddenly he laughed.
Then I looked at him with curiousity. 


"look at your face. Looks like your going to cry. So whos the chick-chick-chicken now?" 


"That was not funny!" I growled.


"I just wanted to know what would be your reaction." he teased.


I shush. 


"I'm sorry Margarette. I didn't mean to.." 


I was not saying any word. 


He sighed sadly.


"GOTCHA!!" I laughed so hard.


"argggh! You!!" He was also laughing. 


"Huh! Thought you could have a prank on me? In your dreams chiiicken!" 


So after a few moments of laughter. 
We just ate our food and talked more about the movie we've watched.


"The food was goooood!" 


So we went to Starbucks to get some coffee. "My treat" I said. 


He ordered cappuccino and for me my favorite Vanilla Frappe.


"Margarette.." 


"What?" I asked.


"I really wanted life to make most out of it.. But, I can't seem how?"
he said while stirring at his coffee.


"So I wanted you to be part of it.." 


Is this actually true? Or I was just dreaming?  


"oh, uhmm.." I don't know what to say. I was in a moment of shocked.


"Lets have a deal. In 30 days I'll show you everything you don't even know about me and same with you. I wanted to know the real Margarette. If you would give me a chance. I'll prove it to you that I changed from the nerdy chicken you knew.." he is unpredictable, I can't read what was going through his mind.


"Well, I just don't know what your up to." I said.


"In time, you'll know."


"Think about it." I could see that he is really eager.


I'm really confused, coz' eventually I'm starting to fall for him. But, is it too fast? I mean, what's with the 30 days? And what will my mom say? 
--HELP SOMEONE? 

Mom and dad's HAPPINESS.

It was a hard and devastating week for me. 
Seeing your parents at their weakest moment.
Makes my heart melt.
If only I could always wear my protective shell of numbness.
I would. But, I can't..
It sucks. When you wanted to help them, but the only thing that you could do is to cheer them up.


The last time, Mom just hugged me tightly. So tight that I can't breath.
"Mag papalakas ako para sa'yo at kay daddy mo." I just don't know how to react from it. I knew my mom was crying the whole time she was hugging me. Actually, it was a very ackward moment for me. I don't want to show my mom that I'm weak. Dad said, not to be one. So I'd swear to myself not to show any weakness. But, it was hard to act that your "Okay", I wanted to burst out in tears. 


The same with my dad. He's much tougher than my mom. Of course, he should be. The last few lines I remembered when the 3 of us talked, "We love you." Short but a very sincere and meaningful line. I like my dad for his positivity. I guess, his marketing career helped him to be one. 


It was the hardest moment of our lives right now. 
But, I know one day. It will end up very soon. 
Hoping for the best not just for my self.
But, for the sake of my mom and dad's "HAPPINESS".