What would I be?

One night. 

I can’t sleep well.

I just kept on thinking “WHAT WOULD I BE YEARS FROM NOW?”

Thoughts keep running through my head. 

Whether I’ll lead my success to become a much more better marketer or maybe my career is on advertising. 

We’ll never know what my future will be.

After a year. 

I’ll be also wearing my graduation suit.

Receive my diploma. 

Hear my parents that they are so proud of me.

At last! Years of schooling. 

It’s time for me to be on the real world called “LIFE”.

This is what mostly of the parents are waiting for.

To post their daughters/sons diplomas on their living rooms.

Or when somebody will ask them. 

“How’s your son/daughter?”

Then, they’ll just answer it with a big smile on their faces.

“She/he has graduated college.”

But, now let me just congratulate those who graduated.

Especially to the seniors in my school.

Who taught us to be leaders on our own ways.

To live life. Accept challenges. 

And especially despite the trials we’ve encountered.

Learn to SMILE. 

Next year it would be our turn. 

CONGRATULATIONS BATCH 2011!! =)

-- Chapter 4

We just went to the mall. And looked for list of available movies.


I'd seen a poster and it entitled "500 days of summer".


"So what do you want to watch? he said.


"Hmm.. maybe we could watch 500 days of summer?" 


"A friend told me that it was a good movie. Alright, as you wish Madam!" He went to the ticket booth. Then I told him that I would get ourselves a pop corn and cans of coke.


Afterwards, we went inside. 


"Good thing the movie is isn't starting." I said. I gave him his pop corn and the can of coke.


"Thanks" he said with a smile.


The movie was about to start.
So both our attentions is on the movie.


The story goes like this.
The guy which is Tom Hansen reflects back on the just over one year that he knew the girl which Summer Finn. Despite being physically average in almost every respect, Summer had always attracted the attention of men, Tom included. For Tom, it was love at first sight when she walked into the greeting card company where he worked, she the new administrative assistant. Soon, Tom knew that Summer was the woman with whom he wanted to spend the rest of his life. Although Summer did not believe in relationships or boyfriends - in her assertion, real life will always ultimately get in the way - Tom and Summer became more than just friends. Through the trials and tribulations of Tom and Summer's so-called relationship. 


The movie maked me bitter. I hate the ending of the story.  


"That was not a good movie!" I shrugged.


After the movie we went to a Chinese restaurant.


"Summer is not a good influence to everyone!" It felt like the movie has a big impact to me.


"I guess she has a good reason. Like it would be better if she would just leave." he said.


"No she has no good reasons to leave. Maybe.." 


He laughed at me.


"Yes, Maybe.. Its better if we could take our orders now."


I just nodded.


"What if I'll tell you that the guy in the movie. We have in-common." 


"ahhh yes! I agree! Both of you are geeks!" 


He just stared at me. No reactions at all. I think I offended him.


"Oh, sorry.." I was looking down feeling ashamed on what I've said.


suddenly he laughed.
Then I looked at him with curiousity. 


"look at your face. Looks like your going to cry. So whos the chick-chick-chicken now?" 


"That was not funny!" I growled.


"I just wanted to know what would be your reaction." he teased.


I shush. 


"I'm sorry Margarette. I didn't mean to.." 


I was not saying any word. 


He sighed sadly.


"GOTCHA!!" I laughed so hard.


"argggh! You!!" He was also laughing. 


"Huh! Thought you could have a prank on me? In your dreams chiiicken!" 


So after a few moments of laughter. 
We just ate our food and talked more about the movie we've watched.


"The food was goooood!" 


So we went to Starbucks to get some coffee. "My treat" I said. 


He ordered cappuccino and for me my favorite Vanilla Frappe.


"Margarette.." 


"What?" I asked.


"I really wanted life to make most out of it.. But, I can't seem how?"
he said while stirring at his coffee.


"So I wanted you to be part of it.." 


Is this actually true? Or I was just dreaming?  


"oh, uhmm.." I don't know what to say. I was in a moment of shocked.


"Lets have a deal. In 30 days I'll show you everything you don't even know about me and same with you. I wanted to know the real Margarette. If you would give me a chance. I'll prove it to you that I changed from the nerdy chicken you knew.." he is unpredictable, I can't read what was going through his mind.


"Well, I just don't know what your up to." I said.


"In time, you'll know."


"Think about it." I could see that he is really eager.


I'm really confused, coz' eventually I'm starting to fall for him. But, is it too fast? I mean, what's with the 30 days? And what will my mom say? 
--HELP SOMEONE? 

Mom and dad's HAPPINESS.

It was a hard and devastating week for me. 
Seeing your parents at their weakest moment.
Makes my heart melt.
If only I could always wear my protective shell of numbness.
I would. But, I can't..
It sucks. When you wanted to help them, but the only thing that you could do is to cheer them up.


The last time, Mom just hugged me tightly. So tight that I can't breath.
"Mag papalakas ako para sa'yo at kay daddy mo." I just don't know how to react from it. I knew my mom was crying the whole time she was hugging me. Actually, it was a very ackward moment for me. I don't want to show my mom that I'm weak. Dad said, not to be one. So I'd swear to myself not to show any weakness. But, it was hard to act that your "Okay", I wanted to burst out in tears. 


The same with my dad. He's much tougher than my mom. Of course, he should be. The last few lines I remembered when the 3 of us talked, "We love you." Short but a very sincere and meaningful line. I like my dad for his positivity. I guess, his marketing career helped him to be one. 


It was the hardest moment of our lives right now. 
But, I know one day. It will end up very soon. 
Hoping for the best not just for my self.
But, for the sake of my mom and dad's "HAPPINESS".

Starbucks 101

Starbucks is one of the famous coffee shops all over the world. The ambiance is very relaxing especially the coffee they serve is very good. One of my favorite drink is their Frappucino. Especially the Vanilla one. Once you taste it, for sure you want more of it. Because, I'm a coffee lover, I became interested in being a "barista", the one who mixes and do the coffee. So I decided, why don't I try my luck on being a barista of Starbucks?
Besides, this is a good way to earn money. So I applied with two of my friends, eventually I convinced them to apply also. So we passed our C.V on Starbucks at Fairview then we waited for about 3 weeks (Estimated days), before we received a text message saying "Tomorrow you have an interview at our main office at Rusrans at Makati. Don't forget to bring a Valid I.D and your resume. Blah..Blah."  So the following day, we went there.

So the first thing we do:

• Fill up the application form and the "Essay"

The essay was quite easy. Some of my answers are very sarcastic. Haha! Anyway, the essay questions is consist of four questions.

"Why did you apply at Starbucks?" 

"What are the 3 things you expect at Starbucks?"

"How do you understand customer service?"

And lastly "What do you do during your free time?"

• Group Interview

The interviewer will asked you basic questions, the questions will be based also on the essay you answered. So you must remember your answers. The first question of the interviewer would be "Tell me about yourself"

just like the first day in school, you should describe yourself clearly like where do you came from, what school are you, your parents are they employed or not, stuffs like that.

Once you started the conversation the questions will just go with the flow. So be ready with your answers.

Then after the bloody hell questions. The interviewer will be giving a letter indicating if you pass the initiation or not. But sadly on my cased, I did not passed the interview. I guess because of the way I answer the questions or maybe because of my age. But, at least I tried my best. I guess it is not really meant for me this time. 

But, I still love STARBUCKS. =)

Part 3 -- Moms knows d' BEST.

"This is the start of something new.." I wasn't really expecting that he would wanted to see me again. I was really surprised.  


"Good morning Ms. Margarette. :)" he texted early in the morning. 


I instantly texted him back, "You woke up eaaaarly. Any, morning also nerdy chicken." 


A text from him brightened up my day. Reminiscing the moment we had last night. 


"Now, its my turn to protect you.." Those words echoed in my mind. What does it mean? So he wanted to protect me? Why did he say such thing? Does he really mean it? Questions begun to pop up in my mind. Marco is the one who can answer these questions. 


I went downstairs to have my breakfast. Which is my daily routine to have breakfast with my mom coz' due to our busy schedules this is the only time we could eat together.


"Hi mom!" Hugging her tightly.


"Looks like your in a good mood hunnie." 


I giggled. "Kinda?"


"So Whos with you last night?" she asked in a curious eyes.


My mom wanted me to have a boyfriend but once she met my suitors, she instantly changed her mind. Then she will just used her powerful lines "What if you get married? How about me? I will be here left alone. What if something bad happened to me? (Then she will just knock-on-wood to prevent the bad omen) Blah. Blah." So in that case, due to her dramatic acting skills, I decided not to entertain suitors. 


"Oh well. A long lost friend of mine." Reaching the box of cerials on the cabinet. 


"Oh.. You aren't telling me that you have a long lost friend." She raised her eyebrow to me.


"MUUUUM!" hugging her again.


"Here have some cereals." I kissed her in the cheeks and gave her the box of cereals.


"I know.. I'm just worried."  


The reason why my mom is like that coz' she had a failed marriage to who else but my dad. They are always arguing stuffs that both of them only knew. I was 7 years old then when they decided to have an annulment. As a kid that time, I don't have any idea what was going on between the two of them. My mom kept telling me that due to the work of my dad he had to go somewhere else far away from us. Which is always my reasonable exuse whenever my classmates are looking for my dad. There were few moments to remember with my dad. I think the happiest moment I had with him. hmmm.. I guess there is none to remember..


Now, I am 23 yrs old, years have been passed and I don't get to see my dad. No calls, texts or e-mails. According to my aunt, the sister of my long lost father that he has now have a new family. 2 kids. And they lived at Missisaunga, Canada. Well, best wishes to my dad. Hoping hes doing well right now. 


I don't have grudges towards my parents. If they decided to part ways, if they think that's the best thing to do. It's fine with me. At least, I have a mom whos always besides me. And for that I salute her for being the bestest mom ever!


"Muuum. You don't have to. He was just an old friend during our h.s days. Nothing to worry about." I smiled while holding her hand.


"Thanks Hunnie. For understanding me." 


"yes mother dear. I know.. Look! You have lots of lines in your face. So better relax. Okay?" I said to lighten up the conversation and stop her from emoting again.  


She just smiled at me. 


If ever I have been given a chance to give her a reward that would be "The best emotional/loving/caring/tough mother".  


So after having a breakfast to my best actress mother dear. I hurried to go upstairs. I grabbed my phone. I got 10 messages. Some messages were from the clients.


Two messages from Marco. The first message:
"yup I have to get up early. Can't wait to see you later. "


The second message:
"how about we could watch a movie. I have free tickets. :D"

I texted him back saying "yeah sure i love to! See yah! :)"


Lets just see what will happen later. Hoping it would be a good one. *crossing my two fingers*


Playing the song Hero of Foo Fighters on my I-pod.


"There goes watching as he goes." I murmured.

The "D" Love.

Here it goes again! Haha. Another writing of mine. Haha! Right after you read it. For sure you'll gonna say "CORNY MO TIN!") LOL. :))

..

There is a time, I feel I am so desperate enough to have that someone.
It feels like everytime I'm seein couples, there is a feeling that I want one.
I miss the feeling of having arguments or petty fights then afterwards, he'll just hug you and say sorry.
I miss the feeling of having deep and serious conversations.
I miss the feeling of talkin to someone when I can't sleep at night.
I miss the feeling of laughing with someone who can't tell jokes at all.
I miss the feeling of writing love notes.
I miss the feeling of bein so in-love.

UGH! I know it really takes time.
Just wait for the right time.
Wait for your turn.
Just pray for it.
Blah. Blah.

COULD YOU JUST BOUNcE YOUR ASS BESIDE ME, HOLD MY HAND AND TELL ME YOUR FINALLY THE ONE IM LOOKIN FOR!

I'm tiiired of waaaiiting. So hurry up!

P.S. don't forget to introduce yourself. :p

Love,

ME. :)

RAIN.

OMGOOOSSSH!! I can't remember writing this. Ha ha! 
Well, anyway. Look how EMO I am! ugh. =_="


...
It was raining.
These cool breeze that I can feel through my skin.
Every drops of the rain puts smile on my face.
There is a feeling of enthusiasm.


The weather I loved.


..I suddenly remember somethin. Somethin that stays forever in my heart.
The feelin I'm longing for.
The feelin that I won't forget.
The feelin that everytime I'm remembering every moment it makes me wanna say this words.
"you will always be part of that feelin"
The feelin that I languished for.
The feelin that I'm craving for.
The feelin that I want.
The feelin that I desire.
The feelin that I'm desperate to have it back.


That feelin that makes me happy once in a while.


Thats why I exactly loved the rain.
It suits every moments.
coz' every drops of the rain.


I used to remember exactly what it feels to love and to be love.